hyde-san

Have you ever had the feelin that you just never belonged that you're only physically there and mentally gone. That no one seems to really care about who you are and where you've been before, like no one seems to see you standing at the door And just shuts it in your face as if you weren't alive, just a lump of meat no feelings inside. Have you ever felt like there was nothing more ahead? That there's nothing else to life, you're better off dead. That there's just a road, and nothing else, that you travel down all by yourself. Cause no one wants to walk with you so it's just you and a shadow, walkin' along contemplating

Can you blame me for nothing at all Can you hate me for something so small? There's nothing I wouldn't do, Nothing I wouldn't say, For someone like you, I'd die every day. Hurt me, while I lay. Kiss me, show me the way. Trust me, Hold my hand. Soon you will understand. Fault me, I'm full of flaws. Test me, I'll break jaws. If it all means, I'll see you again, There's nothing I wouldn't do, just to stand a chance. Can you blame me for nothing at all? Can you hate me for something so small? There's nothing I wouldn't do, Nothing I wouldn't say, For someone like you, I'd die every day. END

I know he's watching me. He knows I'm watching him. We are not face to face. Our eyes do not meet. We watch with stealth, hidden eyes, hidden glances. I look and my gut is still the same as when I see him, speak to him, embrace him. A sick feeling. A mixture of lust, guilt, depression, love. To kiss him would not satisfy. To hold him close would be that same. Making love, holding hands, laughing together; Nothing could quench this thirst, this lust, the want, the NEED. Pain sits comfortably in my heart, making it difficult to breath and speak. The energy it takes to not hold him as long as I want, kiss him when I please, love him and tell h

I'm shakin as I sit here. My mind is racing by. I'm cryin as I sit here. Thinkin of the times; we spent together. The times that you were here. Thinkin that we'd have forever. We never had the fear; that you'd close that door. And never come back through. We never had a single thought, that we could loose someone like you. My heart is poundin and my eyes are sore. Hell, I couldn't even look at my front door. Your pictures were too painful. Cause I'd only see your face. Your car wasn't good enough. Because it split in three places. The night that I found out. I hadn't the slightest clue. Though it was someone else. Never t

We could hold hands, no fear. I could kiss him, no worry. What a wonderful time. We could laugh, no one would care. We could smile, as if no one was there. He is not fiction. Our love is not a surface. What we feel isn't shared opinion. This didn't happen on purpose. The night we kissed. Under those stars, Those smiling angels. I still feel the lifting I still feel our bodies fitting together. Meshed as one. Not knowing where this love came from. Only going forward. Hands held tight, Me, his Angel, will spread my wings, take flight. Take him to a place where there is no time. A special place, where he's always mine.

I'm waiting for an answer. That I know might never come. I've been waiting almost forever. But don't know where I'll get it from. I'm waiting for somebody. To tell me it's alright. Waiting for somebody. To hold me close tonight. I've been waiting for so long, don't know how much longer I can bear. My shoulders once so strong, Are beginning to wear. My eyes are sore, My body's wearin' down. Two seconds from the floor, Almost to the ground. Shins are breaking as my shoulders start to give. Hope they realize what they're taking. I'm stressin, not much more life to live. I can't see beyond this point. My eyes are going bad.